It is an odd time for all of us and the Tucker family is no exception. Too much television although I am also getting in some exercise, proper eating, and research. Still working on my dissertation but am quite tired of my topic. If I am named Dean of Business and Professional Studies at Hardin-Simmons University, then I will dive full force into finishing the dissertation. If not, I may spend my time learning to play the pipe organ and starting a business in mergers and acquisitions. I have an LLC now which means that extra expenditures for the business are tax deductible.
Am experiencing great anxiety primarily over the stock market and the economy. We are comfortable in our home but we still owe money on it. In other words, we do not own it completely. Were I to lose my job, I would have no way to pay the mortgage. But, it is true, that Joel has money and could purchase the home with his money. So I suppose this allows us a certain degree of financial freedom. Truth is that we are in better shape than many people and for that I feel blessed. Delivering meals on wheels reminds me of the condition of people in need and the multiple challenges facing those without extra resources.
But this is also a time to learn new concepts in both music and finance. My knowledge of discounted future cash flows is a little weak and I need to learn how to apply the financial formulas and ratios to valuing companies. Also I enjoy learning new ratios and formulas plus the idea of integrating science, math, finance, and the arts is exciting to me.
Enjoying following the news of the virus. Overall, I believe we as a society are overreacting but time will tell the real story. Can we really shut down all of culture and events as we know them? The economy is based on people spending money to improve and enjoy their lives. Staying indoors and spending only for essentials results in a societal shutdown and an economic disaster. Is this what the government wants? Is the aim to increase governmental power and greater reliance on governmental welfare programs? It looks that way to me.
Experiencing fairly significant anxiety about my future, my dissertation, my career, and all the students who feel displaced and not well-directed. Every now and then I find myself having funny moments of anxiety including shortness of breath, nervousness, fast heart rate and a general lack of motivation. Almost as though my blood pressure jumps way up in reaction to the stress. But then I suddenly feel better and believe all will be well over time.
More thoughts later.
